Seriously. Can someone just call me when all of this is over and done with? I am tired. I am tired of waiting. I am tired of worrying. I am tired of speculating, planning, and wondering. It has been 19+ months since this mess began and it is still dragging on. Today, we found out that Fort Bragg is no longer an option at this point in time (sorry, Mom). The command here informed us that our welcome has been worn out and that, no matter the outcome of the administrative dealings, we will PCS as soon as it is over and done with.
Whenever THAT might be.
We were hoping that the command would let MacGyver stick around to complete the F-model transition but that isn't going to happen. Which means he will remain (for the time-being) a D-model Maintenance Test Pilot (assuming they allow him to remain in the Army). Which narrows our choices of future assignment down to: Korea, Alaska, Germany, Fort Riley (KS), and Savannah (GA). All of which are perfectly acceptable to me (Beggars cannot be choosers!). But nothing can happen until we find out how the administrative side of things is going to play out. So more waiting.
I am so tired of trying to explain to people that we don't know where we are going, or when. It's not that I'm tired of people, I'm just tired of the situation. I'm tired of not knowing. I'm just tired.
I am doing my best to focus on the bright side. And there is a lot that is bright. Even if the Army decides to thank him for his service but show him the door, there are possibilities within the National Guard. So that opens up a variety of new options. And there's always the civilian/contractor/mercenary side of life to consider. And ALL of this is bright compared to the possible outcomes that we were facing just 6 months ago. So, for that, I am thankful. I am thankful that we have a roof over our heads, food on the table, our health, etc.
But I swear, this has been the LONGEST GOODBYE KNOWN TO MAN. I feel like I've been saying goodbye to everyone around here for the past 19 months! For someone that detests goodbyes, this is exhausting! No WONDER I'm so stinking tired.
The information we received today (that we've worn out our welcome and will not be sticking around on this rock into the summer like we had hoped) does help to give us a better idea of our time-frame. Which is nice. I can stop saying "if we're here at that point..." because I know that, barring a miracle, we will not be here beyond the spring. So now I get to break that news to our friends here. Fun. Sorry, guys.
In the meantime, I continue to pray. I pray that the people making the decisions about MacGyver's career are just and fair. I pray that they are able to see that he IS still an asset to the Army and they are better off retaining him. I pray that they are able to see the man that he has become through all of this and the paradigm shifts he has experienced as a result of all of this and how that will benefit the Army and this country if they allow him to remain. I pray that they will offer him a second chance.
"There, but for the grace of God, go I."
But can someone just call me when this is all over?